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Through heartache, Sydney Worthley created this song focused on lyrics. Visuals of burning down the past, trying to clean a stained version of herself, and a first date at the mall. Pulling inspiration from Phoebe Bridgers, Taylor Swift, and Lorde, Worthley expresses numbness, feminine rage, guilt, and every emotion that comes with the territory of heartbreak. "Heart Shaped Mess" encapsulates sad girl autumn...or winter.

Lyrics

I’m making wishes in the mall fountain
Throwing pennies, but I lost count when
I remembered our first date here
I was 16, now you’re my every tear

Maybe I think everyone’s out to get me
But I know for sure that you loved me the worst
And maybe I wish I didn’t burn down my brick walls
I put them all up just for you to shut me down

How can I forgive you
When I can’t even forget you?
You wish I’d just let it go
And I feel like the bad guy
For you ruining my life
But for us that’s just typical

I wish I knew you when you were little
I could explain why you’re a kid still
Throw a tantrum, I pick up the glass shards
For you to grab one and stab me in the heart

And maybe I think everyone’s out to get me
But I know for sure that you loved me the worst
I wish I didn’t burn down our haunted house
You lived in the attic, “for sale” sign’s in the yard now

How can I forgive you
When I can’t even forget you?
You wish I’d just let it go
And I feel like the bad guy
For you ruining my life
But for us
Oh for us

You’re a blood stain on the carpet
I’ve scrubbed hard and I can’t stop it
From spreading around the living room
A heart shaped mess signed by you
A heart shaped mess signed by you
A heart shaped mess signed by you

How can I forgive you
When I can’t even forget you?
You wish I’d just let you go
And I feel like the bad guy
For you fucking up my life
But for us that’s just typical